goodbye to you

rainbows in her pocket by pinkytoast

so i decided to let my biggest vice go... no more ciggys.  just so you all know this wasn't easy and surprised myself more than those of you who know me. i am doing this with the support of chantix and of course aLot of patience, understanding and encouragement from the mr. But in my head this is sort of how it's going;

you are what?!

well how bout just one more?

you're going to miss it.

it's going to be too hard!

what about when you have coffee?

in the car? 

out with friends? 

well, for the first week i fought it. I took the little pill and still smoked as usual. But each day and each cig i lit taste worse and my body was fighting it more. i thought about it only in the moments of habit. like when i'm in the car. but the smell bugs me now. i haven't smoked in my car lately but i still smell it. weird.

side effects ~  (very) vivid dreams and (very) nauseous.

it is week 2. and it's been 48 hours since i have had any nicotine. and it's all about one day at a time right now. long term success is to be determined. 

28 of my favorites

1. listening to pandora

2. fields of wildflowers

3. letterpress printing

4. snuggling with my pups

5. caribou's white chocolate mocha

6. vibrant colors

7. swedish fish candy

8. sabrina ward harrison's artwork

9. playing board games

10. being barefoot

11. urban decay's eye makeup

12. fairies

13. hugs and kisses
14. sleeping to dream

15. casino trips with mama

16. dad's homemade pizza

17. movie trailers

18. polaroid cameras

19. journaling

20. twilight series ~ vampires

21. blog surfing

22. owls

23. little monsters
24. when alex reads to me
25. peacock feathers
26. thunderstorms
27. sudoku
28. free people clothing

a classic

Sabrina Ward Harrison

My favorite artist! She inspires me to the bone. Has a new line of fabulous pieces over at Papya; another favorite of mine. I can't wait to put my order in and get my hands all over her new works. Pure amazing, brilliance! 

i ♥ the uglys

how can you not?

words i would have said

stop! don't - please - heal, love, respect. trust. let go of fear and anger. forgive no matter how much it hurts because forgiveness heals. resentments hurt and destroy. cry when you need to. i know you're scared but trust the ones who love you, lean on us, take time and pray, pray, pray. because life is so fragile and we only get this one time. one chance. don't turn your head - don't run and bury - it aLL comes up and out at some point. face your truth now. it will be okay. it will make you stronger. you are not alone. you will find yourself in all of this . . . believe.

Johnny Cash gets comfy

so it was one of those nights where boredom gets the best of you. i was playing with my video setting  on my camera ~ with no intention of ever showing this to anyone ~ but i guess, what the hell. enjoy?!

journals

one of my passions in life is to journal. in these journals i write to be free, to be lost and to be found. i draw and scribble and collage. they are who i am. very personal and true. some for sharing and some are private. but i also really enjoy making journals for others. maybe because i wish for everyone to have a place to call their own. a place for dreams, an escape, a healing ground.

Up!

Where the Wild Things Are

One of my favorite books is coming to the big screen!! Go here to watch the trailer.