radishes

aj loves to be outside. he'd live out there if i'd let him. usually we go out in the afternoon when it is unbearably hot for momma and i last all of 20 minutes before a screaming match is caused by me dragging him back inside. today we switched it up, we went out early and played for almost 2 hours in the backyard until he actually, willingly came inside :)

its fun to watch my lil guy show his independence. he likes to watch and then try for himself. sometimes he gets frustrated and his trial ends in tantrum but mostly he just keeps trying.

{i think he gets his persistence from his father.}

his da has taught him how to water the garden so as he was doing so i showed him the radishes and how big they were getting. 

 i showed him how to pick one and he then decided he wanted to try it himself. 

 quite proud of himself after one, he kept right on going, showing me each one.

{don't worry da, there are still some left in your garden to finish growing.}

as we get closer to baby girl coming into our world, its nice to be able to spend some alone time with aj.   i have been filled with anxiety over things i cannot control. ie. how will i show equal love to them both? will aj feel jealousy and out of place? how will i balance my already crazy/busy schedule? how will i have the energy to care for everyone, and then me?   i know these thoughts are normal, and the answers are typically; you just do and you'll figure it out. its harder to relax this time around. with aj i felt more at peace with the unknowing. its been so unsettling to be out of control of what will be. so i've been trying very hard to let go and relax. and let others help, thank you s for being so kind when i know its been a struggle with my moodiness. i'm sure you are just as ready to have your wife back as i am ready to be her again as well.