Friday, January 30, 2009

Step 9

Made direct amends to such people wherever possible,
except when to do so would injure them or others.


Admitting my wrongs, taking responsibility for my actions.
A way to finally stop carrying shame, guilt and wreckage.
feeling FEAR and RESISTANCE
but not for their approval or even their acceptance.
the Do so in a way that does not cause harm to others.
How is this possible?! They wouldn't be wrongs to admit and take responsibility for then.
Of course my actions hurt others!
I 've always carried these doings around as self punishment, to shield others from the pain. to protect and prevent.
I know how bad it has hurt myself, then why hurt another?
Rather carry the burden, keep the pain to myself, locked in.
And how do you know if someone you have hurt even wants to hear from you
or relive the past with you?
Is it FEAR that holds me back or is it respect for others feelings?
The except of this step is the RESISTANCE.

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