Wednesday, April 21, 2010

time


when you want time to go by quickly it never does. i'm in the home stretch. 33 weeks today. i just can't imagine getting bigger and being more tired but they say another month at least.

this pregnancy has been tricky. i have been a roller coaster of emotions. yes, i know, some are thinking this is different that your emo self- Yes, very. i can't seem to help the range or extremes. i can be going about my day humming a favorite tune and BOOM - something sends me flying into a sobbing mess or an anger ball.

when i was diagnosed with gestational diabetes a few weeks ago i thought that was it- i crumbled. i was so upset that i had to be on a restricted diet and test my blood and thought, why me and what did i do wrong to develop this. selfishly, i mourned and wanted to resist the changes. but after meeting with doctors, i learned what it is and that it's not something i caused myself (but something my hormones and organs did). what i really learned is that it really isn't about me- not anymore. it's about my baby. and that is when the resistance fell. i will do anything for him.

so i anxiously wait for the lil nugget to arrive. and people, he is going to come when he is ready. i know i look huge to you and that generally women go past their due date, but this lil man has his own due date in mind and he's keeping it a secret, even from momma.

1 comment:

legendswife said...

Wow! I've felt the same way. But by 33 weeks with both boys I found myself in the hospital for preterm labor. Both were delivered at 35weeks and a few days. So the body and baby knows when.

Sorry to hear of your diagnosis. My first son was born with severe eczema and so I was placed on a diet nursing him and also with my second. So I feel ya. It's all worth it though. Get as much sleep now!

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